Sunday, September 16, 2007

Rich, poor & show off

I’ve just came back from a whole week stay in my home town with some constant trips to the city.

Disappointed I am, but this trip truly reminded me what I am in for if I were to move back to Msia for good. It was the very same reason I left home, the very reason that gave the joy to be out of it.

People really judged us(my husband & I) based on your appearance {judge a book by its cover?}, based on where I lived, what I wore & what I have. Apparently best behaviour isn’t good enough. I needed to know how to flaunt my assets & cash.

I have missed home for so many years. Now I am not sure.

On my job of almost 10years, I have served many.

I have met & served the people of 1st world countries, 3rd world countries & under-developed countries.
Some ‘1st world country’ behaved like 3rd world. Some 3rd world do have e grace of better than 1st world. Under-developed sometimes are the most gracious; without all the pretentions & hypocritic behaviour.

I have also MET & SERVED rich & famous, filthy rich, newly striked it rich, richer (who basically are just relatively richer than the people they know), on the rise(people who are climbing the ladder), middle class, affordables & poor people.

I have seen all sorts of attitudes & behaviours.
Some of them impressed me, some disgusted me.

My benefit: I get to choose who I want to be like, how I want to behave.

There is a chinese saying:
Comparing & competing amongst yourselves have no end.
You’re only digging your own grave.

An uncle once told me:
The greatest competition is yourself.
Not the neighbour or the top student in your class or that guy with the Sports BMW.

Some people live lavish lifestyles. Some want to show off. Some just want to survive.

I just want to live my life.
Happy & comfortable.

Hopefully the world allows me.